Respecting your field for love to happen?

Sitting in the FIR sauna at the gym at DV Homes during the lunch break of the second day of the Transformation Retreat. Only 46 and a half days to go 😬😉

This morning was intense. Master Vimal went into the importance of holding one’s own field, purifying one’s own field, never trespassing, and respecting everyone else’s field.
”One of the best ways is to guard the field of the other, then you’ll learn to guard your own field.”

It felt like an expanded version of the ABC in a way—where I don’t only see others as a person, but I also acknowledge that they have a field around them, which is their sovereign space, not to be touched.

Master was correcting me quite a lot. He spoke about how I grew up in an environment that promoted placing one’s view, one’s opinion, one’s field, one’s image onto everyone else—to convince them, to make it all about myself. And that I am still doing this, pulling attention toward myself. Maybe not all the time. Or maybe all the time, just to varying degrees—I don’t know.

But once again, I was faced with the impossibility of doing this—at least for me, for Erik, for the sense of “I.”

Then he asked us, “Okay, what is your practice? What should you do to get out of this?”

We had a sharing around that, and I was sitting there thinking, wow—I really need a practice of respecting everyone else’s field, acknowledging that they have a field, and being very non-violent about it. But then, when talking or interacting with others and thinking, “Okay, Erik, now be non-violent,” … I am again doing “me.” I am already acting from a violent space, since I am trying not to be violent. I’m probably manipulating, and I’m not relaxed or authentic. So I cannot do this. A transformation must happen to me.

Then Master also pointed out—speaking to me and to someone else as well—that “you have deeply rooted this sense, this imprint, that you made it. And as long as you are holding on to that, you will not transform.”

It felt like game over after game over.

Then Master gave us a little opening. He asked, “What do you wish for? Only your wish can hold you true to this.”

At first, I felt lost. It was only the “I” that was trying to wish. It was the voice of the “I.”

Then I understood that somehow my wish had to be for more than me. Otherwise it would just be Erik repeating himself … Erik trying to claim that he made the right wish, violently infiltrating other people’s fields, and at the same time being unable to defend my own field when others are violent, because I have already agreed to that mythology of living and interacting.

Sitting there, I began seeing glimpses of love around me. And then the wish came—to see love in others, to see love in all, and also to feel love in all. Because I have this tendency to escape my body and imagine that I am on the right path, while I am not even fully in the body.

So my wish is to see and feel love in all.

And if I am honest I will know — whether that is happening or not.

Hm … if I am seeing and feeling love in a meeting with another, would I still be able to be violent, trying to infiltrate their field with my agenda?

Maybe not.
Maybe I would even be loving.
That would be a transformation, and a happy discovery.