A Self Reflection: Is it over?

I failed, the “I” has failed, the “I” is what can be over

My doing (or lack of) has brought me to this place where much ended

Though, something more has never been more alive in me

When I focus on the past, I feel like I’m over
When I focus forward, there’s incredible energy and stillness that can never be over

All that I knew and could do didn’t amount to creation, and how could it?
Knowingly or unknowingly I wanted that to come to an end, to fail
This fate was meant to be, born out of the “I” that is in motion and can’t stop itself by itself

Alive in me is a faith that all will come right, even despite me
That there is more, and that more is alive in me too
When I access it, it’s an unstoppable force, looking for all ways to express itself
To create, to give, to offer, to burn away
This is what is growing as me

I think this is the challenge and demand now, to build this force and with it burn off this past that says I’m over