A state where help is not even a question

The state of Nirvan, naked without the clothing of the mind — the perfect witness — when meditation is for real. How is it?

“Can you be in a state of helpless, but not collapsed?” the Master asked.

“Hm. That sounds almost like I am not looking for help at all, as if getting help or not getting help is not even a reality?” I contemplated aloud, ending with a question.

“Yes, you could say that,” the Master replied.

This could change things quite a bit. I have understood that as long as I am looking for help and support in meditation, I am not alone, and if I am not alone there is an idea of something separate from me, which means I am separate — not in meditation.

But to be helpless has usually made me think I should be weak, in need of help. Yet if I actually listen to the word help-less, doesn’t it imply that it is a state where help does not come into play — no help, and maybe not even the idea of the absence of help?

This could be important, because if I imagine needing help I become weak, and if I imagine not needing help, it can easily become an ego of pretending to be beyond help…

But … how would it be to stay in a space where the mind and the idea of help are not even a reality, where the mind about another who can or cannot help is not even a reality?