Robin's sadhana

I am attempting to not run from and instead endure my pain instead of running to bodily urges for relief, so I do not betray love and continue to evolve. I also attempt to observe and gradually purify myself from the impressions that form my ego by detaching from them and placing them in the B, until I hopefully eventually become free from corruption, indoctrination, and traumas, and become able to just be my true self underneath it all. I am attempting to exercise more and eat less so I will lose a lot of excessive body fat. I am enjoying the beauty of nature when I am able. I listen to holy mantras and Grand Master's lectures. And I am doing my daily work attempting to serve the wellbeing of my community.